Real Fear

Okay, so it's been forever since I blogged... but I like to think that, while my blogs are few and far between, my blogs are well thought out and worth reading. So, anyhow, I got to thinking at our core group this past Thursday night about serious respect for the Cross. I got to thinking, while we were taking communion, about how I, as most of us probably do, often forget the serious commitment taken up by Jesus on the Cross. I often find myself not really thinking thru and fully appreciating the sacrifice made for us all. Often, I kind of process it thinking about, well yeah, you're really God... I mean, I totally appreciate your sacrifice for me to, but didn't you have this all planned out from the beginning? And the answer is yes, but I often forget that Jesus was just a man. He was a man that prayed to God, asking if he really had to go thru with this. He was a man that, as he hung there dying, cried out to God, asking why he had been forsaken. For as Jesus was fully man, he certainly appeared to be out of the loop on the entire plan. And so, it was definitely not something that was just going thru the motions; it was indeed a man listening to God because of His love for the world. Anyhow, just something I need to occassionally remind myself of that I thought I'd share.

Necessary Reading

I think that all Christians concerned with getting the most of God's word need to read Daniel's blog from 15 November 2006 titled "Satan Hits a Homerun!". Click 'Daniel H' on the left under my friends list to get to his blog.

Resolution.

Okay, I've found something to blog about.  It hit me last night that a lot of the anxiety and worry in my life comes from my nonresponse to things I avoid or just really don't want to take care of.  i.e., I really don't like talking on the phone outside of the quick, "yeah, I'm on my way, see you in a few" or something like that.  So, I avoid returning calls.  This ends up just making me feel like, "oh, I need to return so-andso's call" all the time.  And similarly, I avoid other tasks that I find boring, like writing my Thank You notes from the wedding (which I am finally working on).  So there gets to be a lot of stuff like this that I just avoid and inadvertently bring anxiety and stress on myself.  Anyhow, part of my phone avoidance is, of course, my family (because it's not you, it's the phone...  really) and I haven't called some of my extended family in a long time; though, last night, I found that I felt pretty good after chatting online with my uncle for about an hour.  And so, what I've been leading up to is the resolution that I feel much better if I just take care of business and get it off of my back (brilliant, I know).  However, what I mean to get at is the slightly more abstract idea that you're more comfortable playing towards resolution rather than trying to stay in your comfort zone.  So why is it a comfort zone.  I don't know, I'm just trying to blog here.  Find your resolution zone and you'll find your comfort zone, but a comfort zone is not meant to relax in.