10.02.2006

Resolution.

Okay, I've found something to blog about.  It hit me last night that a lot of the anxiety and worry in my life comes from my nonresponse to things I avoid or just really don't want to take care of.  i.e., I really don't like talking on the phone outside of the quick, "yeah, I'm on my way, see you in a few" or something like that.  So, I avoid returning calls.  This ends up just making me feel like, "oh, I need to return so-andso's call" all the time.  And similarly, I avoid other tasks that I find boring, like writing my Thank You notes from the wedding (which I am finally working on).  So there gets to be a lot of stuff like this that I just avoid and inadvertently bring anxiety and stress on myself.  Anyhow, part of my phone avoidance is, of course, my family (because it's not you, it's the phone...  really) and I haven't called some of my extended family in a long time; though, last night, I found that I felt pretty good after chatting online with my uncle for about an hour.  And so, what I've been leading up to is the resolution that I feel much better if I just take care of business and get it off of my back (brilliant, I know).  However, what I mean to get at is the slightly more abstract idea that you're more comfortable playing towards resolution rather than trying to stay in your comfort zone.  So why is it a comfort zone.  I don't know, I'm just trying to blog here.  Find your resolution zone and you'll find your comfort zone, but a comfort zone is not meant to relax in.

2 comments:

Daniel said...

Your reticence toward phone conversations reminds me of a lady I once knew who would avoid taking and returning calls until there was no other way around it and the situation had reached critical mass. Her name was Kim.

I think that we should be aware of our comfort zones and strive to charge out of them, doing our unpleasant and feared tasks with great gusto.

Matthew said...

LOL... I know you have no clue who I am, I am Daniel's cousin. I read your blog periodically because he has a link to it on his... I agree with your 'Resolution' post though... Too many people stay in their 'comfort zone'...